#beDeekari♥

as known, in 2011, it was a kind of Nightmare for me, because despite all the beautiful, sweet memories that have been engraved on this year, but in the end, all ended up with sadness, bitterness, misery inside me. I swear to myself that I will no longer dealing with anything related to "love", because that love is what has made me be like that, I don'tt want to see myself like that again in time to come. It was a Nightmare for me kay!

new year is equal to NEW YEAR, NEW MINDSET - THINK YOURSELF HAPPIER!

so starting form this moment, I will take this words as my guidelines to move forward further. and I hope, end up, I'm gonna be success with this words that keep motivating me along a year of 2012!

so those are my wishlist ;  
 
#1. STUDY HARDER! but in a wise way, don't push yourself into it, but makes yourself interest into it
#2. FORGET SQUIDWARD TELINGA CAPANG ! stop your feelings upon him, stop the your LOVE upon him, stop your mind and thoughts about him, and stop crying over him, daa~ it just makes your eyes become flaw =="
#3. A HEALTHY LIFE! just because of this 2012 is the year where I will sit for the SPM, so that  I eat uncertain, so my body weight increased, plus my face will be parking by acne and so on. pfffttt =="
#4. LETS PARTAY WITH FRIENDS! I'm gonna always chill up with my friends. Moreover, 2012 was the last year for us to enjoy the sweet moments of the school.
#5. IMPROVING IMAN! I hope that I can improve my iman, plus I can add my knowledge about Islam more.
#6. GETTING LICENSE! hope that I can do best to get a car license quickly, cause, abah had told last week, that "next year I should really learn to drive efficiently and quickly get a car license"okaylah abahhh .
#7. BE FREE!. Free from all the heart-wrenching pain that I’ve encountered the past year. aku tak sanggup lagi nak tengok diri aku yang pernah broken dulu. NIGHTMARE!!
#8. FIX IT UP! hope that I will having a better relationship with my family. I'm dying to have back my family like before
#9. STILL DAYDREAMING! as usual laa, for me, dreams are aspirations, and aspirations are reality . and I dreams that tonight I'm gonna celebrate this new year with Squidward Telinga Capang lagi
#10. BE ABLE TO SAY " I GOT EVERYTHING ON MY WISHLIST YAWW! "
  
kaylah guys, thats all for tonight. I wish you guys A HAPPY NEW YEAR, MAY YOUR WISHES COME TRUE, MAY ALLAH ALWAYS BLESSING US .  bubye, assalamualaikum, #TeamForeverAlone yaww!


  

i'm totally freaking out, and i'm totally being crazy right now!! and i'm still can't close my eyes enough for a sleep...
warghhh, what's gonna happen tomorrow? am i gonna crying over my face?! or am i gonna scream out loud?! or...??? hermm, i'm wonder how that good of my result? Allah pleaseee, help me a way out!! please makes everything's under control and totally in good! :|

#hahahaha, bajet kau dayang, kau tu dah lepas dah PMR, sedar diri sket, kau tu dah tua!! taun depan dah nak SPM dah pn, pfffttt =="
haha, saja ja laa, nak acah budak2 form 3 nuh, suka kacau2 budak form 3 ni >.<, tp seriously aku ingat lg, last year, semalam sebelum aku nk ambek result PMR tu, AKU TAK LEH TIDO KOT!! SAMPAI PKUL 3, 4 PAGI BRU AKU BLEH TIDO LENA~ ==" itu pn sebab, mcm gini cerita diaaaaaa ;

mula2 dlm pkul 11, 12 mlm, aku dah offline fb, and aku bru lepas chatting ngan SQUIDWARD TELINGA CAPANG (masa tu baru 3 bulan kami kawan dlm fb), and aku cakap la kat dia aku nak tido awal, cause esok kena bangun awal nak pegi ambek result, errr ==" so dia ckp gudnite, and gudluck, then aku off laptop terus! setelah membasuh kaki dan membaca doa, aku terus tido #padahal pejam mata jea, bukan lena betul2 pn =="...hahaha, last2 pkul 2 pagi, aku tak sangga dah rasa rimas sbb aku mmg gila2 tak leh tido punya ah, then aku pn on laptop balik, and on balikkkkk, org first yg tegur aku, is SQUIDWARD TELINGA CAPANG laaa!!! dia ckp gini, "OOIITT!! TAK TIDO LG KA? :p" hehehe, dia tu yg tak tido2 lagi, daa~ then kami chatting2, yg paling aku ingat, HE SAID, KALAU DAYANG DAPAT 8A, DIA NAK KASI AKU TEDDY BEAR BESARRRRRR PUNYA!  sampailah dia sruh aku pg tido, bru lah kami stop chatting and aku pn pg tido again gudnite, bye, tc, gudluck!
thanks SQUIDWARD TELINGA CAPANG!!!

And sampai lah keesokan harinya, dia lah org first yg text aku (masa tu kami dua bru jea ada num masing2 tp tk penah texting pn ) itu lah kali kedua kami texting, and, what he said? "HA MACAM MANA DAYANG? DAPAT 8A KAN?" and bila sampai saat dan ketikanya, aku dah dapat result aku, aku nanges sbb, result aku luar dari apa yg aku expect ==" BM aku gred B kot!! #woi dayang, kau tu org mna ha? org london ka, BM pn dpt B! puiii
hehehehe, haa agak ah, sbb mata pelajaran lain suma A, except BM jea B, siot guh! =="
aku menangis semingguan tau tak lepas tu!! tp, guess sapa yg pujuk aku, bagi kata2 semangat kat aku? SQUIDWARD TELINGA CAPANG lahhh, #again iloveyousomuch
tambah malunya aku bila dapat2 jea result, terus balek kl-phg, #bapak aku ni time tu jugaklah nk blek pn =="
its okay, my spirit provider was already by my side #again imissyousofreakingmuch thanks yup!

okaylah, so for now, I just wanna greeting to all of my friends a.k.a. my junior too hahaha, I would like to say, gudluck to you guys , remember Allah always, never be regret of what had you guys done, cause you had gave your best on it ;) and always remember everything that happens is Qada and Qadar Allah swt, and certainly it has good reasons of its own right? >.<
so, kepada my friend and my beloved junior too, REDZA, APEK, AYIE,  MAT ZUL, YUZREE, HAZIQ, ADAM, LIKUN, HAFIZ, WAFAA, AEMAN, AINA, FIFI, CARAH, UMMI, ALIFF, AIMAN, IRFAN, BADRI, IFFAH, DOHA, and all of Dermarians's form 3 students ;)
hope batch you guys boleh kalahkan ranking batch kami taun lepas! #boleh ka batch 96 nk lwn batch 95? :DD

and this is for my special persons in my life,
; my bestfriend, KERIL!!! gudluck bro! ; my beloved adek-adek, JAT and MYSARA jgn nervous guys! ; and the only one that i'm still in love with...SQUIDWARD TELINGA CAPANG LAH! gudluck emmm,,,,    #I dont know what to say laa..