#beDeekari♥

first of all, I would like to say congrats to Apek ,for his second year anniversary with his beloved one :), hopefully that both of them gonna stay for a longer, and longer, and longest time :) amin ya rabbal alamin~
pleasantly surprised when we can see people who are in fun, I was happy. hermm, how good if I could feel the excitement of the thing, so far, I really dream to celebrate the anniversary with a person who I mostly loved, like others. How the feelings that we are able to enjoy this anniversary right? while my friends got anniversary, I'm already happy, what more if I celebrate it? its okay, later when I'm married, I would also be celebrate it with my husband, right? HAHAA  "but can I be able to get married soon, I keep wondering....?"
I hope that Allah has planned the best for me ..

29 January? there was another memories I will never be forgotten, on the same date last year, that is my first day I met and hang out with someone..... hemm, don't know~, someone who I like? or someone who I fell love? hehehehe, on 29 January 2011 date, for the second time, that is where I met with squidwardtelingacapang, but for the first time I hang out with him. First in, 9 October 2010, was the first time we met, at that time we didnt know each other, but have been fate, on that day, we acquainted through "facebook" a.k.a. FAKEBOOK, HAHAHA :D after stumbled upon before. okay, back to the top! on this day, we're both had been known by my friends which his friends as well about our relation through the phone. fate again -.-. really just a shame both of us. they keep talking and mocking us both. -.- thanks guys, cause you guys had him ashamed, so do I...

okay, on this 29 January, at 9pm, will be held AJL 26, where Malaysian artists-the best of the best will battle for the throne as the winner :) aku team #ForeverYuna laaa, my senior! 
even watch at the teaser, I had know it, that AJL is very tough and freankingly competitive this year -.-  check this teaser: 
 btw, tgokkkk, YUNA bawa dua lagu kot doe!!
anyway, dah2 la kutuk Najwa Latif dalam twitter tu, rimas aku tgok duk trending dalam timeline aku pffftttt -.-
haiyoyo, mampus ke dia la, dia ada talent...tapi aku tak rasa la lagu cinta fb dia nk menang -.-..

okay, last 2 weeks, aku lah yg startkan demam (its a normal fever lorhh -.-)
tp itu lah aku, sakit, demam, whateverlah yg bagi aku perkara sakit besa2 ni, SORRY TO SAY LAH!!! AKU TAK KAN MAKAN UBAT! -.- aku mmg suka biar jeaa, sbb antibody aku kuat #bajetla kau Dee ==" (dulu squidwardtelingacapang suka marah aku sebab tak suka mkn ubat )
alaa, dah nama pn sakit, kang nnti lega la kan? daaa~ 
tapi aku demam agak lama la, seminggu -.- ? urghh, tp aku kuat!demam pn boleh study, main2 suma lg 
then lega jap for 4 days, then jue jangkit demam aku, then jue plak chicken pox -.-...
but then, its the strangest thing ever for me, selama 17 tahun aku hidup, tak pernah lg aku terkena CHICKEN POX?! a.k.a. demam campak atau bahasa saintifiknya CACAR AIR    #pandai dak BM aku? 
aku terjangkit dari jue la ni, kan? MAK DATUK!!! gatal tau tak!!! nak garu tak leh,
first day naek chicken pox tu, kat badan jea, then masuk jea second day, which is today (17/1), naek kat MUKA? okay, my face kot? YA ALLAH!! hopefully tak dak parut, amin~
tp takpa, I kindda releif cause, naseb baek aku terkena chicken pox skg ni, so nnti tak kena dah la kan? better kena awal2 an? lagi pun after this dah nak struggling study plak~

cikgu, kami semua sayangggggggggggg sangat kat cikgu, eventhough setiap kali kami semua jalan2 kat sekolah, then tetiba nampak cikgu dari jauh, comfirm, as fast as we can, kami semua lari bertaburan dari terserempak dengan cikgu... HAHAHA, itu lawak, padahal Cikgu Zul bukan nak makan org pn, daa~
banyak kenangan Dermarian ngan Cikgu Zul ni...as we known, dalam kalangan pelajar Derma ni, kami suka panggil cikgu dengan gelaran Mat Arop / Arob / Arup / Roy ==" first aku pindah masuk sekolah Derma time form 1 dulu, suma senior gelar dia "Mat Arop"... #aku tak tau mananya datang perkataan arop tu? ==" dalam nama IC dia, tak dak perkataan A.R.O.P. pn =="
THE MOST MY FAV THING ABOUT CIKGU ZUL is; his smile's face , he's looking so cuteeee >.<
awwwwww , #CikguZulComeyCikguZulComeyCikguZulComeyCikguZulComey
next, aku pernah masuk hostel suatu ketika dahulu, and after first year masuk hostel, Cikgu Zul blacklist nama aku (hehehe, sorry cikgu >.&lt atas sebab2 tertentu, #sebab apa lagi, sebab aku nakai laaa
tapi, Cikgu Zul ni seriesly baek kot!! hati dia mulia sangat2!! masa kali kedua aku nk masuk hostel, dia bagi, tapi aku kena buat surat rayuan laa, (ha ini kerja ayah aku~ pffffffffttttttt ==")
then, aku tak masuk dah hostel~ ngehee
btw, kami selalu ejek Jue, Cikgu Zul tu daddy Jue, ngehee :DD #daddy tak pa lg kan, dari sugardaddy? haaa, ayo!!!

sepanjang minggu ni aku nanges 3 kali , just sebab dapat berita cikgu zul nak pindah ke SMK TENGKU BUDRIAH after he being promoted as PK KANAN 1 PENTADBIRAN...first dapat tau tu, time perhimpunan umum last monday, neway Eisya pn nanges gak eh , aku sembunyi2 jea laa
then majlis perpisahan malam rabu ritu, aku nanges gakk, gila sebak kot! padahal sebelum tu, 2 hari sebelumnya, Cikgu Azizah pn pindah gak, jadi Pengetua terus kat SMK SyedAhmad, tapi I felt nothing, maybe cause cikgu tak pernah ajar aku kot? #entahlaa. tapiiiiiiiiiii, Cikgu Zul ajar Bio kot? memang telah la Cikgu Zul tak pernah ajar aku, aku stream account~ tapi Jue and Eisya sempat dia ajar, and they said because of Cikgu Zul, their Bio always getting better and better in a short period jea tahniah guys!
and tadi pagi pn ada lagi Majlis Perpisahan Cikgu Zul, aku nanges lagi tambah lagi lepas tengok paparan video kt atas tu, siap bawa satu rombongan bas lagi just nak hantar cikgu pergi SMK TENGKU BUDRIAH tu~ #aku, jue, qie, imah, hajar, and yaya pn ikut sama kesian Cikgu Zul teyakk, huhuhuhuhu :') but why cikgu? kenapa cikgu kena pindah before kami habes SPM? cikgu tak sayang batch kami ka? kan BULAT tu murid kesayangan cikgu? kami semua satu batch nak sangat cikgu still on Derma, or BACK IN DERMA!

so for now, we would like to wish ALL THE BEST sir! may Allah always blessing you and family, we all here always gonna missing you so much, we love you a lot sir, DERMARIANS LOVE YOU A LOT ♥♥♥! hopefully, everytime you have any free time, please come and visit us at Derma yup! (saya rindu dengan senyum cikgu, dengan lawak comey cikgu, dengan PEACE cikgu bila lalu tepi kelas kami...)
kay lah gudnite alls, Assalamualaikum, take care! #ForeverAlone~

as known, in 2011, it was a kind of Nightmare for me, because despite all the beautiful, sweet memories that have been engraved on this year, but in the end, all ended up with sadness, bitterness, misery inside me. I swear to myself that I will no longer dealing with anything related to "love", because that love is what has made me be like that, I don'tt want to see myself like that again in time to come. It was a Nightmare for me kay!

new year is equal to NEW YEAR, NEW MINDSET - THINK YOURSELF HAPPIER!

so starting form this moment, I will take this words as my guidelines to move forward further. and I hope, end up, I'm gonna be success with this words that keep motivating me along a year of 2012!

so those are my wishlist ;  
 
#1. STUDY HARDER! but in a wise way, don't push yourself into it, but makes yourself interest into it
#2. FORGET SQUIDWARD TELINGA CAPANG ! stop your feelings upon him, stop the your LOVE upon him, stop your mind and thoughts about him, and stop crying over him, daa~ it just makes your eyes become flaw =="
#3. A HEALTHY LIFE! just because of this 2012 is the year where I will sit for the SPM, so that  I eat uncertain, so my body weight increased, plus my face will be parking by acne and so on. pfffttt =="
#4. LETS PARTAY WITH FRIENDS! I'm gonna always chill up with my friends. Moreover, 2012 was the last year for us to enjoy the sweet moments of the school.
#5. IMPROVING IMAN! I hope that I can improve my iman, plus I can add my knowledge about Islam more.
#6. GETTING LICENSE! hope that I can do best to get a car license quickly, cause, abah had told last week, that "next year I should really learn to drive efficiently and quickly get a car license"okaylah abahhh .
#7. BE FREE!. Free from all the heart-wrenching pain that I’ve encountered the past year. aku tak sanggup lagi nak tengok diri aku yang pernah broken dulu. NIGHTMARE!!
#8. FIX IT UP! hope that I will having a better relationship with my family. I'm dying to have back my family like before
#9. STILL DAYDREAMING! as usual laa, for me, dreams are aspirations, and aspirations are reality . and I dreams that tonight I'm gonna celebrate this new year with Squidward Telinga Capang lagi
#10. BE ABLE TO SAY " I GOT EVERYTHING ON MY WISHLIST YAWW! "
  
kaylah guys, thats all for tonight. I wish you guys A HAPPY NEW YEAR, MAY YOUR WISHES COME TRUE, MAY ALLAH ALWAYS BLESSING US .  bubye, assalamualaikum, #TeamForeverAlone yaww!


  

i'm totally freaking out, and i'm totally being crazy right now!! and i'm still can't close my eyes enough for a sleep...
warghhh, what's gonna happen tomorrow? am i gonna crying over my face?! or am i gonna scream out loud?! or...??? hermm, i'm wonder how that good of my result? Allah pleaseee, help me a way out!! please makes everything's under control and totally in good! :|

#hahahaha, bajet kau dayang, kau tu dah lepas dah PMR, sedar diri sket, kau tu dah tua!! taun depan dah nak SPM dah pn, pfffttt =="
haha, saja ja laa, nak acah budak2 form 3 nuh, suka kacau2 budak form 3 ni >.<, tp seriously aku ingat lg, last year, semalam sebelum aku nk ambek result PMR tu, AKU TAK LEH TIDO KOT!! SAMPAI PKUL 3, 4 PAGI BRU AKU BLEH TIDO LENA~ ==" itu pn sebab, mcm gini cerita diaaaaaa ;

mula2 dlm pkul 11, 12 mlm, aku dah offline fb, and aku bru lepas chatting ngan SQUIDWARD TELINGA CAPANG (masa tu baru 3 bulan kami kawan dlm fb), and aku cakap la kat dia aku nak tido awal, cause esok kena bangun awal nak pegi ambek result, errr ==" so dia ckp gudnite, and gudluck, then aku off laptop terus! setelah membasuh kaki dan membaca doa, aku terus tido #padahal pejam mata jea, bukan lena betul2 pn =="...hahaha, last2 pkul 2 pagi, aku tak sangga dah rasa rimas sbb aku mmg gila2 tak leh tido punya ah, then aku pn on laptop balik, and on balikkkkk, org first yg tegur aku, is SQUIDWARD TELINGA CAPANG laaa!!! dia ckp gini, "OOIITT!! TAK TIDO LG KA? :p" hehehe, dia tu yg tak tido2 lagi, daa~ then kami chatting2, yg paling aku ingat, HE SAID, KALAU DAYANG DAPAT 8A, DIA NAK KASI AKU TEDDY BEAR BESARRRRRR PUNYA!  sampailah dia sruh aku pg tido, bru lah kami stop chatting and aku pn pg tido again gudnite, bye, tc, gudluck!
thanks SQUIDWARD TELINGA CAPANG!!!

And sampai lah keesokan harinya, dia lah org first yg text aku (masa tu kami dua bru jea ada num masing2 tp tk penah texting pn ) itu lah kali kedua kami texting, and, what he said? "HA MACAM MANA DAYANG? DAPAT 8A KAN?" and bila sampai saat dan ketikanya, aku dah dapat result aku, aku nanges sbb, result aku luar dari apa yg aku expect ==" BM aku gred B kot!! #woi dayang, kau tu org mna ha? org london ka, BM pn dpt B! puiii
hehehehe, haa agak ah, sbb mata pelajaran lain suma A, except BM jea B, siot guh! =="
aku menangis semingguan tau tak lepas tu!! tp, guess sapa yg pujuk aku, bagi kata2 semangat kat aku? SQUIDWARD TELINGA CAPANG lahhh, #again iloveyousomuch
tambah malunya aku bila dapat2 jea result, terus balek kl-phg, #bapak aku ni time tu jugaklah nk blek pn =="
its okay, my spirit provider was already by my side #again imissyousofreakingmuch thanks yup!

okaylah, so for now, I just wanna greeting to all of my friends a.k.a. my junior too hahaha, I would like to say, gudluck to you guys , remember Allah always, never be regret of what had you guys done, cause you had gave your best on it ;) and always remember everything that happens is Qada and Qadar Allah swt, and certainly it has good reasons of its own right? >.<
so, kepada my friend and my beloved junior too, REDZA, APEK, AYIE,  MAT ZUL, YUZREE, HAZIQ, ADAM, LIKUN, HAFIZ, WAFAA, AEMAN, AINA, FIFI, CARAH, UMMI, ALIFF, AIMAN, IRFAN, BADRI, IFFAH, DOHA, and all of Dermarians's form 3 students ;)
hope batch you guys boleh kalahkan ranking batch kami taun lepas! #boleh ka batch 96 nk lwn batch 95? :DD

and this is for my special persons in my life,
; my bestfriend, KERIL!!! gudluck bro! ; my beloved adek-adek, JAT and MYSARA jgn nervous guys! ; and the only one that i'm still in love with...SQUIDWARD TELINGA CAPANG LAH! gudluck emmm,,,,    #I dont know what to say laa..