#beDeekari♥

selepas berkumandangnya loceng sekolah tadi, maka berakhirlah riwayat aku as a school student!

so after this let's go HIGH HEELS! it's been my fascination for a long time ago >.< and after this, i would wear it anywhere i want, cause i'm no longer holding on the status of  "school student". It is because, peeps always keep a narrow mind towards " under-age girls who wear heels~"

Marilyn Monroe said, “I don’t know who invented high heels, but all women owe him a lot.”

but, my most fascination was YUNA HOMECOMING CONCERT ! :'(
i really reallyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy wanted to go there, and having fun with her music >.< It is because my defence is music as it fills me :)

really would love to go to Penang by tomorrow, kenapalahhh time aku spm ni jgak laaaa Yuna buat konsert? :( tak pa lah, this 15 Disember ada lagi big concert ;D tapiiiiiii yuna tak dak laaaaa :(

this time is our time! >.< fuh! dah lama dah aku tunggu moment ni, at last, HERE'S THE BEGINNING OF THE ENDING! ;)
after strugling studying with my friends, for the last night before getting on the exam's first day, me and my friends have a lot of fun, we're dancing~ we're laughing~ we're making videos~ hahahahaha, okay lawak video tu, memalukan aku jeaaa -.-  HAHAHAHA :DD tak pa lah nama pn having fun kan? ;)

kay here, i would like to wish to all of my friends and all of the spm candidates in malaysia, all the best! FIGHTING!

"Usaha tangga kejayaan" hehehehehehee :D masehhh for that words! *tak payah nk mentionlah sapa orang diaaaa :P

 Okay, bubyeeeeeeeeeee! Assalamualikum :P

“I’m just thinking about the time when I met you, but now I’m thinking about how I can forget you, you have my heart from the start but it faded..”

Today is 9 Oct. 2012, it takes me of the flashback of the time of a two years ago, 9.10..2010, where a white vespa and the pink scooter met. And starting from that moment, we’re became friend.  soo, SELAMAT HARI KAWAN #squidwardtelingacapang :')



okayy, it's been 2 years, i knew him, hmmm, i just wondering does he knows what date is today? and, what the meaning of it... hmmm~ *berharap lagi, pffffftt -.-
for today, i just wanna wish that, i can talk to him like before, hmmm but i just don't know why i still can't start it all over again? why ah? -.- like last month and last 2 months, we had been met for many times, but instead i still can't have a chat with him just like i wanted to...
i always being awkward when you're totally in front of me, hmmm kan best kalau kami kawan baik?
hmmmm~ 

GUDLUCK TO ALL OF MY JUNIORS ;)

do the best kay for this pmr, kak d harap you guys can make our school will be at the first ranking :)
to bandies junior tersayang semua, kak d tak nak hampa semua main2 dah eh, kak d nk tgok result hampa semua, kalau okay, kak d nk belanja makan semua! serious laaa, kak d janji, tp kalau sorang dari hampa result tak okay, hmmpphhh, offer belanja makan akan ditarik! :P
to lala, kak tau dahhh, lala comfirm score A's punyaaa~ gudluck eh adek? ;)
to aina and others pn laa, *ni payah junior ramai sangat -.- so GUDLUCK GUDLUCK GUDLUCK!
*tak tau nk ckp apa dahh laaa -.-

ini semua kerja QIE!!!!! alaa, yang lain pun sama lah, saja kan hampa? -.-
hmm, taun lepas tak sempat nak beriftar dgn dia pun~ every week plan, but still tak jadi *itulah tanda2 yang kami dah tak da jodoh :(
but tak sangka tahun ni, my friends dah plankan sumanya~ thanks guys :')
subahannallah!! its been a year kot aku tk jumpa dia, betul2 a year sbb bulan ogos. i still remember last august, hmm, itu lah our last "happy life" between us. but then, it's totally changed.
padahal hari tu aku sumpah, lapar gila! sbb tak sahur -.- tapi bila dah berbuka jaaa, suddenly aku tak lalu...
sbb apa ha? Qie cakap sbb "capang" tu ka?... tapi tak kan laaa~
or mungkin tu salah satu petunjuk Allah yang memang kami dua dah tak berjodoh dah kan? :(
tapi, aku rasa lega sangat bila tengok kawan2 aku semua layan dia dgn baik, they're still friend like before :')
baguslah, let bygone be bygone kan? *tapi aku jea tk mampu nk"let bygone be bygone" lagi :(
aku rasa maybe kawan2 aku semua dah maafkan dia~ good lah! ;) sayanggggg kawan2 aku >.<


okayyy, 15 August, I will always remember it :') *okayyy, mood sedih dah datangg -.-
macam2 jadi malam tu, yang memalukan pn ada, yang sedih sket pn ada, yang happy pun ada :')
lama aku tak dengar gelak dia, like seriously i miss it a lot~ even mcm bunyi mcm enjin motobot tak lepas, but i miss it >.<  adoyaii, seriously, aku teringin sangat nak sembang dengan diaa, nak gurau2 dengan dia, like he did with others last night :') hmmm
okayyy, tapi yang masa pergi ambek dia kat rumah tu mmg MEMALUKAN!!! actually aku nervous laaa, dia duduk seat depan tepi aku kot! QIE JAHAT!!!!! JUE PUN JAHAT!!! saja pekena kami dua -.-
itu tak pa la lagi, yang tersangat memalukan! Ya Allah!! why at that moment OST Sekali Lagi's song which is the film that we have both watched, suddenly played. subahanallah, gelabah gila kot aku masa tu, dengan tgh drive lagi, then aku pun kalut2 laaa ubah lagu tu, *hope dia tak perasan moment tu, hope dia tak perasan lagu tu :( tapii, kalau dia perasan pn, macam dia ingat jea kan? hmmm :')
pastu kami semua jalan2 kt uptown, i know he had try the best to get a conversation between us, but yet, i'm the one who was not ready for it. You, i'm so so sorry, Qie pernah cakap, you just nak kawan balik dengan i kan? i wish that we were like that too :') but, you kenalah paham situation i first, skg i dah nmpak effort you tu, but seriously i cakap, i can't trust on you, so that i can't trust on that too :') piyanae~
hemm, you still lagi pakai perfume yang sama kan? i still can remember it :') it was like stuck in my memory until whenever. dah la aku asyik lari dari dia jea~ pfffttt -.- dah kenapa ngan hang ni dayang -.-

hmm, kay it's getting late! so, let's go home, but first, i've got to send him home :) macam kakak la pula -.-
tapi ada satu moment tu, masa dia nak tolong aku reverse kereta, i heard that he's saying

i heard that he's saying like this : "eh kejap, bie keluar sat tengok kereta belakang...."
and i was like : "is it true what i heard just now? he had call himself with bie? :O"

OTTOKAE!!! "BIE" dia sorang jea yang aku pernah paggil mcm tu. harap dia sendiri tak sedar apa yang dia cakap tadi, maybe dia dah terbiasa panggil bie dgn gf dia kot :') its okay aku faham, hmm~
i just hope that his gf will never be like me, and i'm hopping so that, SquidwardTelingaCapang will never do the same thing again to her :') they're sweet together :) i always pray for you happiness capang :D anyway thanks, and maybe after this, i tak nak jumpa you dah sampai bila2, it's our last time. i think it's better we're still keep on being starngers, again.

okay this year as usual aku terlibat dgn Mssps "yg sgt memenatkan dan mencabar kesabaran aku" -.-
aku terlibat cause aku ni bandies, bukannya atlet wakil sekolah tu... alaaa, aku just setakat wakil rumah sukan boleh laaaa nk dpat num 1,2,3 tu, yea laa kan cikgu mana pandang akuu :P  hahahha #AyatTouchingBulat :P

tapi, MSSPs taun ni tak seindah lagi macam taun lepas....
semalam, ada reheasel for perasmian MSSPs 2012, so aku kena pg sana laa...
sampai ja aku kat sana, aku tersenyum sorang, #okay mcm org gila la -.-
you know why? aku tengok balik tempat2 yg ada kenangan aku dgn dia dulu... and, dalam kepala otak aku masih lagi terbayang2 squidwardtelingacapang.... #okay sumpah aku dah rinduuuu dia sangat2, I Miss How Close We Were :'(
tapi, apa boleh buat, aku pendam ja dalam hati aku ni, seriously I'm missing him...but aku kena kuatkan diri aku ni juga la untuk hadapi semua tu, dah memang tu lumrah hidup pun kan? Let by gone be by gone, but the memories always still rooted in my mind forever squidwardtelingacapang... I'm not so sure even if this year he's still take part in sport or not.... but I keep wondering by myownself, kalau dia masuk MSSPs taun ni, dia ingat ke tak lagi kenangan2 kami dua kat situ? I think, for sure tak...dia tak mungkin akan ingatkan benda remeh mcm tu, tambah lagi berkenaan dgn aku kan? aku ni siapalah sangat bagi dia?
kemarin petang tu, semua tempat aku tengok, aku dah terbayangkan dia and tetiba aku tersenyum sorang tanpa aku sedar pun aku duk tersenyum sorang2...tapi apa lagi yg aku boleh buat, just SENYUM ja la sambil ingat balik KENANGAN2 LAMA kan3? aku rasa most of you guys pun mcm tu juga kan3?

tapi mungkin Allah kesian kat aku kan? so thats why dia tunjukkan aku squidwardtelingacapang terussss depan kedua mata aku ni....Ya Allah, aku tak tau apa perasaan aku time tu, sedih? hemmmm, happy? hemmmm or heratless? arghhh, semua sama ja lah... tapi untung sangat dia tak nampak aku, aku bersyukur sangat....tapi aku hairan, asal aku dgn dia selalu terserempak, tapi aku jea yg perasan dia, tapi dia? tak pernah pun perasan aku...or maybe sebab kami tak da jodoh nak terserempak even for once time.... or maybe aku masih sayang dia so thats why, aku jea yang boleh nampak dia?! ohhh nooooo wayyyyy!!!!!!!  tak mau la mcam ni Dayang oiiii, stop it, you've got to stop your ownself from loving him...please dayangggg pleaseee laaaa, jangan lemah, ingat pesan Keril, aku kena kuatkan diri aku juga walau apa sekali pun kay? :)

okaylah bubyeee, aku sambung busykan diri balik ;) masa ni lah masa terluang pun dalam hidup aku, so aku kali ni aku just post ni just nak luahkan rindu aku kat dia jaaa, hemmm, kay lah bubyeeee ;) Assalamualaikum ;)
#I miss you, but youuuuuuuuuuu.................

this eve, me and Jue along with Nget, we went to release tension for a while after struggling training the band.. so we had decide to go to I-box for a karaoke sesion.. long time no visit to I-box...well, it's full of memories between me and squidwardtelingacapang... and again today I had force myself towards it.
its okay then, I had set my mind that I came there just to have fun with my friends only >.<
in the middle of the fun having karaokeing some "Korean" songs, suddenly, Jue had pick a song which is, "Aishiteru"...okayyy, right from that moment, I just keep quiet but meanwhile my head was already packed about of him~ erk -.- and I'm hate it so freaking much, Ya Allah, please let those thoughts about him off my mind, pleaseeeeeeeeeee?????


Its still rooted in my mind so clearly, last 26 June, you had sang that song to me, and on that time we went for karaoke with Rudy too.... hemmmmm~

Seriously I hate you despite of loving you inside even instead it hurts me a lot.
You really makes me hurt all over again like you used to do :|
I'm going to be okay, so please let me be :/
You're my true love cause I have love you truly deep inside of mine, and it more than what you expect.
Yet, you're still the one who always make me smile and laugh even if you're the one who had break my heart.

hey, today I just want to express what had happened to my life this lately >.<
AKU TEAM FOREVER ALONE :) !!!!!!!!!!! huhuhuhu, tapi aku bangga okay dengan forever alone aku tu :P

#sebelah ni Hazimah Harun yg comeyyy, she's my girlfriend. nak tackle dia, sini depan dgn aku :P

tau tak sekarang ni alllllllll of my friends masing2 ada bf -.- , jelous ka D woi? =="
hahahahha, tak lah, plus aku happy gila tgok kengkawan aku happy being with their beloved bf, tau tak ;) syukur alhamdulilah :) setiap mlm dlm dewan study, aku and Imah ja terpaksa berkepit kami dua org, cause yg laen semua berkepit ngan partner masing2 -.-  hahahaha, aku tak pa laaa, dah terbiasa dah being alone pn :) tp kesian kt Imah, dia mcm teringat balek ex dia, which is tiap2 mlm tu sentiasa ada depan mata dia~ dia bukannya teringatkan lelaki tu, it just dia teringat time2 dia couple dulu. It was the first time dia couple, then sampai skrg dia tk pernah in relationship ngan mna2 laki pn~ well, dia tu mmg payah sket nk "fall in love"..hati dia tu terlalu berharga bagi aku sebagai kawan dia untuk disakiti lagi~

Then haritu, aku outing with Jue and her bf la, Nget, #as usual aku sorg2, hahaha, tak pa2 bleh jadi setan kt depa ni >.< HAHAHA, okay then kami balek jalan sama2 pg depan library.... and then suddenly, aku ternampak Qie and Kuan tgh date, hahahaha, bayang betapa alonenya aku time tu, depan mata aku, bestfriend aku, Qie tgh date, belakang aku, Jue punnn tgh date, mesra2 lagi :( AND KNOW APA AKU BUAT MSA TU? SECARA TETIBANYA, TAHAP KEGILAAN AKU DTG SELUBUNGI DIRI AKU, muahahaha, AKU JERIT KUAT2 MCM NI  AKU SENDIRIANNNNNNNNNNN.......!!!!!!!!!!! then know what? dalam aku duk kata mcm tu terus aku nampak SQUIDWARDTELINGACAPANG lalu sambil bawa moto nouvo tu la and tk silap aku lah, dia pakai baju Cookie Monster yg sepatutnya kepunyaan aku :P hahahhaa, damnnnnnnnnnnnnnnn, asal kebetulan sgt ntah? -.-

then kat sekolah plak, masa tu exam ADDMATH paper 2, aku ngan Jue and Imah pg turun study sekali dkat Dataran Putra tu time rehat sampaiiiilah 15 minit lagi untuk paper Addmath tu. FYI, Imah ni cukup tak suka rice cracker, yg aku ngan Jue plak mmg die hard fans gila ngan rice cracker tu, or bak kata Imah, "biskut nafas berbau" -.- bodoi la hg Imah oiiii :P dah masa tu rehat, aku pg la beli rice cracker tu dkt Koop, terus Imah belah dari situ, hahahaha, kesiannnnnnnnnnn... then Nget pn dtg la kt situ study + rehat sekali ngan kami... then masa tu ada Nyok, dia ni cekang addmath, haaa apa lagi, join study sekali ngan dia laaa ;) pastu kannnnnnnnnnn, awek dia dtg kat situu >.< OMG, sweet gila depa dua, sama2 pandai Addmath, pastu sama2 study Addmath sambil2 ajar kami semua, tp nampaknya mcm aku and Nyok ngan awek dia ja yg study, Jue and Nget duk bercekarama sambil study apa tah depa dua tu :P (jelous tau!) hahaha, bertuah la org bahagiaaaa :P hehehhe, and guess what? aku duduk di tengah2 kedua-dua sweet couple tu -.- IMAHHHHHHHHHHHH, mana hg masa tu ah? aku sorang2 kot kt situ woi! tp pandai depa perguna aku kan? mentang2 lah depa ni couple, so bila aku ada kt situ, tak dak la cikgu nk kata apa2 kan? yea lah cuba bayangkan kalo tak dak aku? comfirm cikgu2 akan ingat depa tu tgh "double date" kan?

apa2 pun, aku doakan semua kawan2 aku bahagia, bagi aku tengok depa bahagia pn aku dah cukup bahagia, seriously my friends..so here aku nk kasi warning kat Nget, Kuan, Amir, GG, Menteri, hampa jgn buat bg kwn2 aku sedih eh? kalau ada, siap la hampa semua!! ingat aku tk berani :PP even skg aku dah tak tomboy, but jgn cari pasal eh! masalah kwn2 aku, masalah aku jgak. kesedihan kwn2 aku, kesedihan aku jgak :P
hermm, tp tak pa laaa, aku ni mmg seorang yg suka sorang2 pn, yea lahh, SHOPPING, STUDY, JALAN2, sorang2 tersangatttttttttttttttt lah best tau! itu dah jadi rutin aku >.< kay lah duk merepek apa kat sini tak tau -.-, jom sambung study nak? aku kan ada lgi satu paper tak jawab lg ni >.<...kay guys, bubye, nite, tc alll ;) Assalamualaikum, #TeamForeverAlone

hey, lama tak blogging after struggling studying for the exam last 2 weeks :)
Alhamdulilah, semuanya berjalan "kindda" okay2 ja lah~
ouh yea, post ni its all about evrything that had happened within last 2 weeks...
first of all, THE MSSPS HOCKEY CARNIVAL, its our first new experience for our team, but for me, its the second time I went for the hockey match. But dah lama sangat aku tinggalkan hoki, so this year, aku kena start blek dri mulalah~ but its okay, aku, hockey is the only most game that I love to play with >.<
tp, our team tak menang pn, its okay la, asalkan experience tu ada right? ;)

okay3, back to the top, 29 FEBRUARY <------- perasan tak tarikh ni bru wujud taun ni after last 4 year? so it means taun ni was a leap year! ANDDDD, it means that taun ni WE GONNA CELEBRATE APEK'S BIRTHDAY hahahaha, aku ngan Keril berlumba-lumba semata-mata nk dapat tempat pertama first wisher for Apek >.< tp, pandai betul la Keril ni chong aku, buat2 call aku la, just nk lengah2kan aku utk wish apek punya birthday! okay fineeeeeeeeeeeeee, Keril menang -.-, shittos you Keril, aku benci hang! -.-

next was, JAT's BIRTHDAY! 3 MAC!, I'm totally happy on that time cause I was really hope that our relationship will be like we used to be before :) AND ALHAMDULILAH sgt2, me and adek dah kembali mcm dulu. Thanks adek sbb buat akak happy sangat2 hari tu. And thanks jugak sbb adek mmg tertunggu-tunggu pn akak wish. Adek, akak tak kan pernah lupa birthday adek la, and akak harap after this, kita akan still celebrate birthday sama2 lagi kay? and, sorrylah, taun ni akak tak dak hadiah pn nk bg kat adek, it just a small surprise party for you at Pizza Hut tu ja la :( tapi, akak happy sangat on that day, and hope adek pn happy jgak secara ikhlasnya kay? :DD sayangnya Aina tak leh join sama, kalau dia ada sini, kan lgi best? akak just nak buat adek happy ja on your birthday :)